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Depression

I feel like I've been hit by a truck. Worthless, useless, ugly and unbearable. I don't want contact with anyone. I have a huge headache that won't go away. And now Roger wants sex. I'll do it but that doesn't mean I have to like it.

Feeling better

I joined a study group that's being done through the U of A. It's two years long, but I get to see a therapist on a regular basis and he's actually a great guy. We're doing CBT therapy, which involves homework (that I have a hard time doing) but the purpose of it is to stop negative thoughts that might occur and how to combat suicidal feelings. So far, so good but I think my meds help most of the time. The only time I don't feel good is going to bed. I go for 1/4 mile walks, take my meds and yet here I sit, waiting for sleep. And the sleep isn't good even when I do get it, plus it gets screwed up when I work on the weekends or when I'm in the Guard. I feel good now, but I feel like there's a freight train labeled "DEPRESSION" that's headed straight for me.

We'll see how it goes.

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